A Bimbo, Re-Defined

...a princess's diary...

lundi, janvier 31, 2005

When Mr Right comes at the wrong time

Very jian xue, in my opinion. I share her sentiments

When Mr Right comes at the wrong time
Timing is everything, even in love. And when you are not ready to commit, you could end up regretting it
By Janice Wong

SOMETIMES, timing rather than love decides who we end up being with - or without.

Only some lucky people marry the loves of their lives. The rest marry the most suitable person who comes along when they are ready to settle down.

A friend in his 20s came to this conclusion after confiding in me that he had recently met a woman who is more attractive than his wife, and so occupies his thoughts more often than his wife does.

'If only I had met her before I got married,' he said wistfully.

But I think even if the love of one's life appears when one is single, one may not be in the right frame of mind to recognise him or her as such.

And then love passes by.

Life is littered with near misses and lost opportunities.

I attended my ex-boyfriend's wedding last month, which triggered many memories.

We met five years ago when I was 23 and he 31. It was love at first sight.

He had an established career, was down-to-earth and steadfastly religious.

I was then working as an air stewardess and my head was - literally and metaphorically - in the clouds.

I was also - well, let's put it this way - not religious.

Despite our differences, we were soulmates. We had the same quirky sense of humour and shared long, intense overnight conversations.

But human nature is perverse. When someone is excessively nice to us, we start taking things for granted, instead of appreciating them even more.

My ex sent me to the airport, fixed my PC, reminded me to take health supplements - and go to church.

He had everything I could want in a husband - except that I was not looking for one. A boyfriend was all I could cope with then.

I loved fast cars, danced wildly at Zouk and took off on shopping holidays at a whim. My life revolved around I, me and myself.

In the six months that we were together, he popped the question several times and talked ad nauseam about having children. He wanted us to enrol for a Christian marriage preparation course.

Yes, I did often fantasise about a Vera Wang wedding gown, but I was at that stage of my life when I was more interested in Guess than Baby Guess.

And where - dare I admit it? - I still wanted to meet other men.

So I was a 23-year-old with the emotional maturity of a 13-year-old. Responsibility? Wasn't that for adults?

In short, I met Mr Right at the wrong time.

The more he talked about marriage and religion, the more I felt pressured and the more pressured I felt, the more irritable I became.

I was too impatient to compromise. Every trivial matter blew up as a big deal. My mood obliterated the good in our relationship and reached a point where I just wanted out.

He was heartbroken; I was sad but relieved. He still called me regularly, beseeching me to change my mind.

The calls stopped finally after a year. Now and then, we say 'Hi' via e-mail.

I had a few painful relationships after that. Served me right, as those rude wake-up calls were necessary for me to realise the meaninglessness of my hedonistic high life.

I missed the tenderness of my ex and began having second thoughts.

Perhaps I also felt more urgency to find someone marriageable before my biological clock reached zero hour. It dawned on me that I am not a pixie like Peter Pan who can flit around forever. One day, I'd wake up sick and alone when my fair weather friends flit away.

But I was too proud and too unsure of my ex's reaction to call him until last year.

The first thing he told me excitedly was that he had found The One. My heart tumbled to my feet. So, that's Fate.

If only I could turn back time. If only I had met him later. If only... what feeble words.

These days, I am more circumspect. I have come to terms with my loss. There is nothing I can do about timing, but I can do everything about my choices.

Sometimes, when the nights get lonely, I toy with the idea of marrying a platonic friend of mine, who often assures me earnestly that, if the worst comes to the worst, he'd be willing to marry me.

But I always dismiss that. I have already made one mistake. I should not make another by settling for second best merely for the sake of getting hitched - only to regret it soon after, as the guy who confided in me did.

Hopefully, the best is not over but yet to be.

Ref: __hxxp://straitstimes.asia1.com.sg

ICQ is on


Finally I installed ICQ in my office's computer. I think I have not logged on to ICQ for ages already, so this is quite an accomplishment, in my opinion. no? u dun think so?

ok, to all those who havent got me on ICQ, u can add me at 120192609.

Do not do so if you are a mysterious 27-or-so years old girl from USA, who only wishes to send me messages about pornish sites, with messages like 'check out what I did last weekend'.

man, I hate the porn industry.

dimanche, janvier 30, 2005

Londres - my dream habitat!!!

Oh, I really want to live in london for a while. I do hope I get the chance!!

I am sure sis will want it too.

London is home to almost all the great great musicals. AND being a musical freak, I love love love that city!!


Isnt it amazing??? I only managed to watch 2 musicals. They are cheaper than in Singapore too! so happily. Due to time constraints I can only watch 2. =( My friend was like complaining, saying that why waste your time on musicals, u should see london city instead.

tsk, hua4 bu4 tou2 ji1 ban4 ju4 duo1 ( if you speak to someone who doesnt share the same point of view, even half a sentence seems too much).

Lets go stay there RU!

one thing that I find amusing is:

There are people paid just to stand around with sign boards. What a waste of human resource!

Also, the MRT there is called tube. And the tube workers just had some strike. From what my friend said, they actually earn more than the starting pay of a doctor. AND they go on strike as and when, for more ridiculous reasons than the french. For example: this person got fired because he was drunk when he came to work, and the people will go on strike just to bring him back!

if it is true, it can be quite ridiculous.

One most fulfilling thing of this trip is that I finally met up with my long lost friend LY. Knew her since sec 1, 12-13 yrs old. She used to be rather tom boyish, with short bowl like hair. AND NOW? she is gorg!! with streaks and permed hair. with a french bf to boot!

Me, the chek ko pek

I am currently waiting for the cheerleading video clip to finish downloading. it is taking soooo freaking long and I really really wanna watch it!!

Or then one of my dearest friend, MEL, is in it. Also, to gawk at the cheerleaders of course!! Muahaha... well, it is more of the stunts and dance steps, that just by watching, gives me an adrenaline rush. *mm is the one who educated me about adrenaline rush, cos she made me watch this omnitheatre show:P*

sososoo looking forward to that.

Meanwhile, my yahoo auctions are doing well! Remember the previously anticipated shopping trip? yup, may I present here: the NEW hardcore fan of GAP!!! no, I did not find any wristlets. But the bag with rhinestones are sooo gorgeous!! Check it out! So pretty that I bought a bucket of it! HA! not so kua zhang lar.

*stares at the msn progress bar*


hmm.. let me select some pictures from london. Only interesting ones lar, I shall not bore u nice people with sceneric and momenutal pictures:)

vendredi, janvier 28, 2005

Do we, should we, hold on to our dream?

Do we, should we, hold on to our dream?

I believe, most of us have this dream image of how your other half will be like.

Guys might want someone like Snow white?? (I dunno!!) Someone gentle, beautiful, charming, never ever loses her temper, remains slim effortlessly, have nice long hair...etc

For girls, (this I know better), someone who is tall, handsome, muscular (NOT the body builder type, more of toned), intelligent, witty, has a good career, charming with good dress sense..etc.. (endless list!!!)

For me, when i was young, my ideal guy is:
1. tall
2. handsome, with a good bod, preferably atheletic
3. very well groomed -- clean and shaved, and smells good
4. good dress sense -- looks stylish in whatever he wears, of course his choice of clothings manners most!
5. loving and non-MCP : respects a girl, no matter whether she chooses to be a career woman or a house wife
6. cooks well!
7. intelligent
8. witty
9. has a great and successful career
10. rich to a certain extent - enough to not worry about money

Now, tell me, how many men on the streets can meet such expectations???

After my numerous encounters...speaking from the men I have dated..

When u get rich and career, you usually get not handsome, with flabs.

When u get intelligent and can cook well, you get not handsome, a tummy, and most possibly bad dress sense!!

Handsome + witty does not come with intelligence!! the list could go on and on.


so, when do you choose to drop that dream guy image, and go down to earth?

For me, I have done that long long ago. Simply because people around me keep pulling me down to reality, telling me to be realistic. Also, down-to-earth guys could sweep you off your feet, just like that! =) I did fall a couple of times head over heels..

My gal pals often envy the guys I go out with. It seem like they, have long shoved that dream guy image into the shelf and forgot about him, just like me. and looks are suddenly (of course!) not important anymore. neither is his career, or the amount of cash he has in his pocket. Flabs sometimes are even termed as cute.

To me, that dream image, will remain a dream image, for life..

until recently, I saw him. We met. he fulfils all my dream guy criterions. I was more than swept. What should I do?

I am lost. very lost.

jeudi, janvier 27, 2005

Il neige au jourd'hui

It was a rather good day for me today. To end it, it is snowing quite a far bit, by the time I end work.=)

Really nice to see the snow floating down like some fluff. but of course, it is not very glam when it drops on ur face and spoils your makeup, OR when it drops on your hair, and make your hair sticky, etc.

speaking of hair, yes yes, I offically have a short, layer and somewhat ugly fringe!! ARGH!! The whole story is as such: I slept with my hair slightly wet yesterday, so horrors horrors!! i woke up with a bad BANG-ED fringe, and frizzy looking hair, even though I did a hair mask that night! so freaked out, i pile on leave-in conditioner to obtain my lovely shiny straight hair again. (yes yes, I am a hair freak, but i think i m better than cw --the female version of course!)

So, i m haveing a really really good hair day today, ignoring my fringe though! But that is not the only reason why I am relatively in a chirpy mood today.

Another is, my dear dear friend in phoenix, USA, gallantly offered to help buy that levis jeans I am eyeing for me!! it has lovely diamonates on it, and is simply gorgeous! I love shiny shiny things. My colleague (Mr dolphin, i shall name him, else it will be difficult for you to follow. why dolphin? hmm.. that is a very chim question, if you have read my blog, u will know!!).

OKOK, MR Dolphin is going to US to meet MS Dolphin. and apparently, Ms Dolphina Dolphin is extremely jealous, and might kill Mr Dolphin if he helps buy jeans for his female colleagues. So, when I was talking to Mr Phoenix this morning, I was so happy that he offered to help buy. and Dolphina will not make a fuss, as Dolphine is helping Phoenix to bring the jeans to his friend--ME!

Really really thankful. I did not even asked him to do so!! very very nice person!!Levis is cheap in US! it is like around 20-30 USD for my jeans. what a beautiful day.

How was your day? was is beautiful as well??=)

The fringe cutter again

ok people people, turns out: I am too kia kia to go out with a dollie-like fringe (not brave enuff), SO i woke up at like 6am, and happily, frantically layered my fringe. haha.. serves me right.

My thoughts now are often on london and its fine fine musical land!! I am seriously thinking of moving there...

mercredi, janvier 26, 2005

The fringe cutter

I have this weird thing about me.

Whenever I feel very frustated, I do stuff to myself.

Not really destructive stuff. it is more like: cutting my own hair, dyeing hair, painting french manicure, face mask..etc..

so, inspire by my this certain friend, Dollie, I decided to go for bangs! NOT because it is easier hor!! people who know me, should know that I cut good fringe! But I decide to have to change from my usual layered fringe to BANGS, isnt it fun?

okok, it is not exactly bangs, but I too kia kia (scaredy cat) to cut a thick and full fringe. heh

hmm.. now it doesnt look so nice liao, after I wash my hair.. *crossed fringers* Hope it will be nice tomorrow.
Else I will just layer it!

vendredi, janvier 21, 2005

An urban fairy tale

Alot alot alot alot of things happened for the past few days. My life has been a real roller coaster. Phew, I really do not know where to start blogging from!!!

Meanwhile, I just realised that I have unknowningly became a successful mei po aka matchmaker. This primary school friend I found from friendster has earlier asked me if I still have connect with this classmate of me. (I am from 6A, and she from 6C, and the guy in this subject is also from 6A.

so happens that he is her primary school crush, ha! what a sweet and nice story! SO, being kind hearted and helpful, I hunt down that guy in our class outing, AND told him that she was looking for him. Before I knew it, (cause i just logged into friendster to add this guy)

let me disgress about this guy. HE is the absolute coolest and one of the two winners of the RUHUA quiz ! =)

*pause finished, back to the above story*

Yes, I was saying, before I knew it, I saw her friendster account with the main picture of them! not being able to believe, I clicked in the thumbnail and confirmed it. SOO sweet!

isnt this one of the sweetest love stories you have heard?


Once a primary 4 girl fell in love with her classmate, and kept it to herself. she kept him in her heart and did not forget him all these years. Then one day, 13 years later, she found one of his classmates, and pestered her to pass her contact to him. which this classmate did. They finally met up and fell in love.

And I hope they live happily ever after and have lotsa kids!


Spoiling the romantic mood, there is an article of our dearest SpongeBob!

But at least two Christian activist groups say the innocent cartoon characters are being exploited to promote the acceptance of homosexuality.


I am sure you have experienced it, at some point or another, you just have NO mood to work at all. (if you haven, good for u. you are a precious gem for your company.)

Today, is one of these days. Mainly because of a few main reasons:

1. Singapore is having a holiday!! Hari Raya, so why oh why am I working!!!! I am in France, so sad.

2. This is a friday, the weekend forever seems so near yet so far!
( looks sadly at the clock on my computer, 14:57pm it said to me) =(
Low morale.

3. In just a few hours.. I will be out of Paris and france!!hahaha.. visiting a city where there are alot of musicals. soo looking forward to it!

So, as compared to the things I have planned, working is so sian now! Headache and all. Sian sian and more sian.

Help me someone. My left eye lid is twitching, I wonder is it good luck or bad luck. Do you have an idea?

A scary sighting on the Metro

As I went out late with my colleague for a japanese dinner, I had to take the metro back at close to 12am.

There is this old man, sitting all on his own, with clutches.. AND the scary part is, he has blood around his forehead and eye area. The blood is slowly flowing down.

He kept making funny noises, as if talking to himself. Super scary.

There were a few people around, but they just either stared at him or ignore him. Nobody really cared.=(

I felt quite sad actually, to leave that man alone. But my french speaking competence level is not up to that yet. so.. yup..

I hope he is well.

Anyway, I think I made a terrible mistake by telling my colleague that he looks pretty enough to attract gays. Terrible terrible mistake!

However, don't you think that it is actually a compliment??? orlando blooms is an example of a pretty guy. and he has a huge female fan base. As a girl, I can't understand what is wrong.

So isn't it like when you have already 10 apples on hand, and suddenly someone gives you 5 oranges. Isn't it something to be happy about?

Apparently he doesnt think so, he thinks that it is like he has 10 apples on hand, and suddenly someone give him some cocaine!


jeudi, janvier 20, 2005

33 Reasons why NOT to poste your pictures online

Its quite entertaining i think!

click here!

What did that guy do to deserve this?=P

This reminds me. Once, my school main comm posted the pictures of the beauty pageant contestants online for people to vote, or view.

Turns out, some idiot took the pictures and fixed their faces onto nude model! eeks! how gross.

For me and my friend, our pictures end up on some mildy pornish website that i do not wish to mention here. Was upset about it. well it is the past. Hence we are more careful to post pictures on the web.

However i still think it is fine to post small pictures, not the big high resolution ones. One can't do much with a small picture, so you can be sure you are safe!

SO, my point is.... cw, pls post some pictures leh!!!!!also, all of u reading, pls post pictures too!!

My new MD

Special thanks to my dearest friend, psn. She gave me an MD full of Mayday's new songs!! how nice. Thanks for the CD too!

Being a highly deprived person, I have been listening to it quite frequently, during working especially!!

OK, will give a review here to show my deepest appreciation.

Sun Wu Kong: I love it!! I love it!!! i think it is my favourite!!
I liked the really indian-like intro, cos this monkey went to india for those sacred scriptures!
There is one phase about him, not being afraid of falling in love with the wrong person, but being afriad of not falling in love before..
This gives me shivers.. basically can't visualise the monkey being romantic and all lar.
Jue Jiang: It is a typical Mayday song. Typical doesnt be normal. Well, typical mayday songs are nice!
(haha..see how politically correct i am?=P)
FYI, psn is a DIE HARD mayday fan, she just flew to taiwan for a mayday concert! (and I used to think that I will only get to know about such crazy fans from the newspapers, or the xing qi wu zhou bao) haha
Ting bu dao: I love this one too!! i think ah xing brings out the flavour of the song more than fish leong.

ok, I am stuck at these 3 songs, repeating them before I can proceed. Sorry, I really do want to appreciate slowly, instead of listening all in a rush! =P

Thank you alot!!PSN

mercredi, janvier 19, 2005

on the way home

Sorry people, no strikes pictures.

Let me make it up by posting pictures of this adorable baby who kept smiling at me on my way home, on the bus.

He is soo adorable, no? it is taken my palm. apparently the digital zoom is not really good, and pixelated. Well, handy though.

South Beach Diet

Since, my friend has apparently shrinked in size after following the South Beach Diet, I feel that it is worthed a mention, no?

Good things are meant to be shared haha

Ok, to do so, you are to avoid sugar, cabo and fats at all costs.

Apparently, there are various stages:
For stage 1 it is strictly NO carbo, fats, sugar (which includes fruits) for 2 weeks. Apparently you could shred alot of kgs if you were to follow strictly within these 2 weeks.

My friend just reduced her intake of carbo, fats and sugar, and she shed 2 kg already! amazing.

Hope it helps someone who is thinking of dieting.. (that will mean almost all the girls right?=P)

mardi, janvier 18, 2005


A new year-- Field Report.


Strikes in france

Have you all heard of this joke:

A Tale of Two Cows

TRADITIONAL CAPITALISM. You have two cows. You sell one and buy a bull. Your herd multiplies, and the economy grows. You sell them and retire on the income.

AN AMERICAN CORPORATION. You have two cows. You sell one, and force the other to produce the milk of four cows. You are surprised when the cow drops dead.

A FRENCH CORPORATION. You have two cows. You go on strike because you want three cows.

A JAPANESE CORPORATION. You have two cows. You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce twenty times the milk. You then create clever cow cartoon images called 'Cowkimon' and market them worldwide.

A GERMAN CORPORATION. You have two cows. You reengineer them so they live for 100 years, eat once a month, and milk themselves.

A BRITISH CORPORATION. You have two cows. Both are mad.

AN ITALIAN CORPORATION. You have two cows, but you don't know where they are. You break for lunch.

A SWISS CORPORATION. You have 5000 cows, none of which belong to you. You charge others for storing them.

A CHINESE CORPORATION. You have two cows. You have 300 people milking them. You claim full employment and high bovine productivity. You have the newsman who reported on the numbers arrested.

AN INDIAN CORPORATION. You have two cows. You worship them.

A MALAYSIAN CORPORATION. You have two cows. You signed a 40-year contract to supply milk at 0.06 per lit. Then midway you raised the price to 0.60 or you cut supply. When the buyer agrees to the new price, you change your mind again and now want 1.20. The buyer decided you can keep the milk and they go look for milk that comes from recycled cows. Your two cows retire together with the PM.

A SINGAPOREAN CORPORATION. You have two cows: One "cow-peh" and one "cow-bu". Both are owned by a government linked corporation.

Yup, so YAY. my first experience of a strike in Paris starts tomorrow. For the past 3 months or so, there are already 2 major strikes. And other small ones.. that is not included in the news.

It is quite fun (as an outsider of course!), my colleague actually saw a strike from his balcony. It is as, we are considered as expats (haha..) we are located in the most expensive ddistrict. In walking distance from the Effiel Tower, hence we get a chance to see more strikes life! hmm.. I wonder if I can get any ppictures for you all.=)

So speaking of the strike tomorrow. it is the strike of the Metro and RER staff. basically like our MRT. So, I guess the buses tomorrow will be very crowded, I guess I will wake up early to avoid the crowd.

*sigh* I miss my dearest country..

lundi, janvier 17, 2005

Karma, do you believe?

Do you believe in Karma?

This short thingy happened to me on Saturday.

So, remember this thing that made me laugh out loud in the office? This apple thingy?

Yes yes, so my boss kept bugging me and asked me, whats so funny. So I have to make something up. Guess how smart am I. I actually said that it was because my friend saw the picture of your house and thought that it looked like an altar. And proceed to explain what an altar is.

THEN, after confirming that I am meeting my friend at 11am for shopping on saturday, my boss demanded that I have to go pick out some asian cultery, as his family is sponsoring him for his birthday. So that he wun pick out more altar-like stuff!!!!

SO, I have to drag myself up really early (okok, not that early) to go to Printemps (this expensive place) to pick out plates and cultery with my boss at 10am.

Totally tired for the whole day due to that!

Now, this is what I call Karma.

apple laughing->altar joke->waking up early->long and tired shopping day


vendredi, janvier 14, 2005

Ruhua Quiz -- The answers!!

Blood and sweat has been shed for THE ULIMATE CHALLENGE--

The RUHUA quiz of course!

I am very very amazed by some experts on ruhua! it is really incredible!!

In my opinion, all are very difficult, and to say the truth, I can only answer question 2 and 11 on my own. Although I am really a huge fan!=P

It was a tough fight! 2 people managed to answer 7 questions. WOW!! really not too shabby!

Will be sending you all the prizes!

And here are the answers!=)


Question 1:

1. 武状元苏乞儿

Question 2:

2. Flirtous scholar [唐伯虎點秋香]

Question 3:

3. Shaolin soccer [少林足球]

Question 4:


Question 5:

5. King of Cookery [食神]

Question 6:

6. Enter the Phoenix

Question 7:

7. Stephen Chow- San Miguel Beer ad!!!

Question 8:

8. Hail the judge [九品芝麻官-白面包青天]

Question 9:

9. From Beijing with love [國產零零漆]

Question 10:

10. 千王之王

Question 11:

11. The lucky guy [行運一條龍]


we have to give credit to the actual guy!

He doesnt look too shabby, does he?

Shopping - Soldes dans Paris!

Guess what I have planned for Saturday!

A shopping trip and a nice meal with an old Singaporean friend. Feels like some reunion or something, although we havent really been that close, or even close. However, it is really nice to see old friends in France.

More and more singaporeans are coming to france! Seriously, why?

And those out of Paris cant wait to see Paris. Honestly, Paris is waayyy overhyped. So much for the fashion capital of the world! It just happens so that alot of designers are from this place. Other than that, there is really nothing great about its street fashion.

I am sure you have heard people raving about the fashionable clothes Parisans wear..etc.. You know, those people are most probably tourists. AND the fashionably dressed people are mostly tourists, or the tiny weeny percentage of the parisans (not to mention the rest of the french living of the suburban and urban areas. Tourists are so lucky, they get to see the best side of the city, and the high profile streets of Paris where normal parisan NEVER really go.

I am planning my shopping list too! Havent really shopped in a while, as it was too cold!

Look at these!!

Aren't they cute? =P

I definitely will check out those pretty wristlets at GAP. I've seen really cute ones on Yahoo Auction, and I really wanted to see what the hype is about. People usually sell things in singapore from abroad and claim that the item is very popular abroad. I hate people who lie about it!

This happens with this particular MLM brand.

Lets roll eyes together! at the count of 3. One, Two, Three: ROLL!!

They so claim that their products are very popular in France, AND all big departmental stores are using their products, as well as carrying their brand. Then when I reach here, and shopped around in Paris, I couldn't even catch a sight the so-said item.

Until recently, I saw it right at the bottom shelf of a secluded corner of a supermarket-cum-clothings shop. For those who want to lie about their products, think twice. People might get chances to travel around, so never ever lie about such things!

mercredi, janvier 12, 2005

I love China!

You all might have already known that my passion for business, particularly selling things!

It is amazing that people are actually willing to exchange their hard earned money with the things you are selling, no? For me, it is really makes my day!

I think to date, I have sold a big variety of things through various channels. These include
-selling Chinese ink thingy (muo yan) in the flea market at Clarke Quay,
-selling perfumes in Taka (aka a cosmetic counter bimbo),
-selling my school to propective sponsors,
-consigning 77th street products to sell, blah blah blah
-to the recent and most ridiculous: selling mini sewing machines.

If you have already brought your mini sewing machine, thank you for your purchase! if not, go have a look at yahoo auctions!simply search for mini sewing machine! haha

In my opinion, suppliers from Korea, and China especially are superb! You can get almost everything there. Of course it does help that I have relatives working there in China.

Anyway, because of my recent stint, in yet another funny business. I need to source for plastic containers. Just wanna share with u all the funny response, that caused me to make a HUGE fool out of myself, laughing like a crazy woman in the otherwise, rather quiet office..

This is one of the funniest response I've got the China suppliers, when I sent a mail asking for plastic containers:

But unfortunately I only can supply you the fresh apples such as Bag
Fuji apple class 1 and class 2 and Qinguan apple, do you need it?
If you need it please let me know and I will give you a best price.

An apple anyone?=P

Mebbe I m just easily amused, it really caused embarassed me in front of my french colleagues! *_*

Everything is moving really fast now for me. Hope that everything will be smooth! Will have to work really hard! yeah!

mardi, janvier 11, 2005

Being employed

Work is really stressful, as it is not going smoothly. I am getting headaches more and more often. Bad bad sign. Can't think much if I have a headache.

I often feel that if I use alot of my brains to think, I will get a headache because of overworking my poor brain. I wonder my theory is correct. Also, when I use alot of brain power, I will start to get one or 2 strains of white hair too! utterly horrid no?

Anyway, today, I got an email from this company who is offering me a job as a software engineer!! Ha ha. Alittle too late, don't you think? Why do jobs flow in after I accepted this job to come to France??

I am feeling sooo employable today! I remember after the exams and my mum started nagging. It was a horrible time. And the campus interview doesn't help AT ALL, to my morale, as I did not bother to apply for jobs. With a super optimistic plan to get myself hired during the campus interview, I had my morale dampened because there are just simply too many candidates at the interview. The interviewers were so overwhelmed by the sheer amount that they requested for submission of resumes only, no interviews will be carried out.

humpf. so much for campus interviews! So if you really want to be employed, do not ever place your hope high on campus interviews!!

Honestly, I am alittle hou huo(regret) for signing this current contract. After frantically signing the first exciting contract coming my way, I got other offers. Particularly the job offered by this highly successful VC I knew, when I was doing funny things in university year 2.

ARGH! I would love the job SOOOOO much!!! I absolutely LOVE business!


Anyway, I had dinner in my boss's house earlier. In fact for the past 2 sundays, he cooked for me. So paiseh! To date, he has cooked for me for 3 times already, and went for a movie and dinner out once.

I must figure out someway to cook something asian and delicious AND impressive!!!! Please help!!!

Meanwhile, these are the pictures I took at his place.

He is very interested in cultures, and bought this, during his trip to thailand:

LOL, I tried hard not to laugh, and of course it is NOT fruitful!!! Reminds me of a certain silly causcian singer who tattooed 'nu li', thinking that it means girl power. It is obviously clear to the rest of the chinese speaking world that it in fact, means nothing, and doesnt even sound right!

Nevermind about all these, the setting is romantic though, with lit candles. So unfortunately that the candles are all red, selected to match his lovely table lamps...

So, I kinda feel like I am having dinner on an altar! BUT to give him credit, the colour combi and the atmosphere are nice and all.

This is our starter for our first meal together!

Looks weird har. The cusine is really really weird, but it tastes quite nice. =)

About lizards

Got home quite late yesterday, but the french people stayed even later! so, us sgreans went home first. Mainly because we have to. One of our colleagues got really drunk and was challenging another colleague (somewhat drunk) to more glasses of the delicious champagne served.

To say the truth, I can't really tell the difference between the good and bad champagne, nor can I tell the difference between good and bad wine. BUT a big improvement is that I started to learn to drink alcohol! This is coming from someone who used to drink $6 coke or fruit punches at nightspots. HUGE improvement indeed. AND I can now tell if the wine is smooth or not. HA! on my way to becoming a wine expert!

I realised that there is indeed a need to learn to drink wine (not really the vodka or bourbon kind), if I am working for a french company. They are a bunch of people who are damn proud of their culture, particularly wine and bread. It is apparently a MUST to have wine during meals, and important to mix the right wine for the right food. The good news is, we frequently get free wine served in our very own company cafeteria!!=P

Okok, back to the Lizards !

MY friend's pet lizard just died recently. (who on earth will keep a lizard as a pet!) The reason for its unfortunate death is quite unbelieveable.

Apparently, it was too thirsty that it drank too much water and bloated to death! Proving that lizards are intellectually challenged! My generous friend wanted to share the pictures with me, but I think I will rather not!

The one thing I am very afriad of is lizards, and from time to time I can't help wondering, how did the lizards manage to survive so long given its IQ level. From what I recall, lizards date back all the way to the prehistoric dinosaur period.


Even DODO birds are extinct. And from what I observe, lizards are still far from being extinct. Grrr..

Another story of yet another intellectually challenged lizard. Me and my sis (i think!) sat there and saw a lizard sprain its neck while tilting its head to follow the flight path of a mosquito flying pass. And it remained in that position, as it could not move, til it died! ridiculous huh.

One more story. Of yet another stupid lizzie. This one ran over a piece of double sided tape and could not move, til its dying day. Or rather.. roting day. so gruesome that when we discovered its rotting body!!!=(

The point is, I hate lizards.

And I like Ru Hua!! haha

lundi, janvier 10, 2005

Intel vs AMD

Please ignore this rather nerdish post, if you wish.

Today is my company's annual dinner, and hence I decided to wear a long dress to work. And this experience reminded me why do i hate to wear long skirt!!

they are super constrainting, especially so when one is late for work. So as I am doing my best to walk as fast as I can, I could not take bigger steps, why? Because this irritating long skirt is contrainting my movement.

Hence I have to make small steps but more steps. I so feel like an Intel processor, who has to be faster to outrun the AMD processor (who claims to be able to perform more tasks per clock cycle). =(

Yup, very nerdy hor. I would imagine, only those nerds with their shirts tucked into their light blue jeans (very fashionable during leon lai period!) making jokes of such nature!


I am really so tired today, due to the late night out yesterday. will update you people about it soon! I am definitely swearing off late Sunday nights!!! It gives me the monday blues.

The most difficult thing I have to do each weekday, is to drag myself out of bed. Each time the alarm rings, I will promise myself 5 more minutes and then it rings again, and 5 more minutes. And the vicious cycle goes on and on. Until I realise I am going to be late, and I have jolt out of bed, hurrily do eveything, and rush off!!

Does anyone out there feel the same way??

Anyway!!!! I LOVE you people!! thanks for submitting your answer to the RUHUA quiz!!!you people are incredible!!! *hugs and kisses to all!!!*

Will post the answers at the end of the week (prob friday), so it is still not too late for you to submit your answers!!! Email your answers to janinamania@gmail.com now!

Meanwhile, do you all know of any asian recipes, that are fool proof, and tastes good? Please let me know! I think I have to return the favour to my french boss by cooking for him. So sian, I feel so inadequate. Please remember that the recipe has to be really fool proof!! (ie, even the orang utan in mandai zoo can do it as well)

Take care to all!!~~

vendredi, janvier 07, 2005


Living in this present century, happiness seem to be far beyond reach. Especially with the Tsunami going on, deaths and everything depressing, happiness seem to be something impossible to have.

Even people with seemingly perfect lives are not able to be happy, what about the rest of us?

I have a friend who is very pessimistic, before the year starts, she would have already calculated the amount of Monday blues she is going to have for the year. Even though she is in a perfect relationship. I also have another friend,(actually my dearest cousin) who already made a count of the long weekends we will have in the year 2005!! For me, I prefer to look at the bright side. Nowadays, I will be happy when the temperature hits 10 degrees, when there is a glimpse of the sun, when I can find that eyeliner that is smudge free, or that pair of jeans which fits me!

When the people around started discussing about the Tsunami, I often find it hard to maintain the conversation. Well, all I can say is that I am sad that it happened. And I really wish to move on to another topic, but it might make me seem cold and unsympathetic. I asked a friend, how should I even respond in such a situation, when a random French colleague say to me 'The Tsunami was really terrible' or 'It is really a big catastrophe'.

My friend replied, 'Well, I am more interested in the ways I can help those who survived.' The perfect answer. To me at least. Yes, grieving for the dead is inevitable, but what is more important is to look forward.

They are dead, and you are alive. So alive. Live.

Xi1 fu2 is rare. How many people around can actually do that? You can hardly find anyone who doesn’t have any complaints about his/her life.

We will never treasure simple things like being able to see the bright shining sun everyday, unless if one day we lose our sight. So, why wait till a disaster, before we start to treasure things?

Hence, treasure yourself, treasure your family and friends, treasure everything around, before they are gone. This is what I must remind myself everyday.

Btw, pretty pls bear with the ugliness of my blog. Doing my best to revamp it to no avail! I think the previous site is way too pink!! I know I should be good in IT stuff, but hell, what kind of life do you lead when you are an IT-know-all?? I just know what I need to know! HA!

What a perfect excuse for my incompetence!

mardi, janvier 04, 2005

Ru Hua

Headaches and headaches all the way!!

its irritating, and I think it is because of too much Sex and the City. To tell you the truth, I am thoroughly sick and tired of the show, after completing the 3rd season yesterday, with lays-BBQ flavour and a kinder bueno bar. CRAP!!

ONE more scene of passionate kissing leading to sex, and I think I will vomit. I am so SICK of this!!!! each episode, there will be like 3 or more sex scenes, can you believe it?

Maybe that is what caused the headache! The fact that people in New York are more interested in Sex than Romance TOTALLy deluded me. How can it be this way? Even women are like this.. *headache* I am a person who will get stressed by this very fact. I still strongly believe in romance, love and all. AND yes, I am idealistic, so what? I want to remain this way.

OK, so as I am having a massive headache due to SATC and also work stress (it happens when I am learning and working on something new!), this is a topic that will cure away headaches!! haha, well, at least it cured me!

Here may I present to you..

Isn't she that popular babe in Stephen Chow's movies??=P

We all love her, dun we???

OK, so here is the deal. The person who can match most of the pictures to the correct Stephen Chow's movie/advert gets:
1. a xiao ke wallpaper (hahahha)
2. the incredibles' key chain!!
3. a free gmail account (well, I have nothing more to give away!!)
4. Harry Potter Ebooks (book 1 to 5)

Isn't this exciting????

How to join?
-anyone can take part
-just send your answers to janinamania@gmail.com

Here are the questions!!

Question 1:

Question 2:

Question 3:

Question 4:

Question 5:

Question 6:

Question 7:

Question 8:

Question 9:

Question 10:

Question 11:

Hurry!! submit your answers now!

well, even if you are not interested in the prizes, just take part for fun sake!!

Most people can only answer 2, I think. so if you can recognise more than 2, you might win!!

oh, feel free to forward it around!=P

lundi, janvier 03, 2005

I have Sinned...=(

Dear people,

I must admit that I have sinned. It must be the excessive watching of Sex and the City, like when in JC or something, or maybe it is the cold climate. Or maybe I am still growing?? haha.okok, I shall stop deceiving myself!!

Please please please forgive me for my sin!! I did not mean to do it. I promise I will not do it again. really!!!Please don't condemn me this time ok??

Ay? I haven mentioned my sin yet hor.

This is utterly embarrassing to confess, but... at least I have the courage to say it out!!

SO, I admit guilty to have single-handedly gobbled down 6 packs of Lays potato chips: 2 BBQ flavoured, 2 cheese flavoured, 2 bolognaise flavoured. AND 2 bars of kinder bueno!! over a short span of TWO days.

Speaking from someone who haven't indulged in such sins for a long long time, it is indeed horrifying! I vow NEVER to buy junk food ever again, to prevent such accidents!!!!!!!


You are Perfect.. on paper...

Have you all been watching Sex and the City? It was kind of popular, I am not quite slow to have just started to watch it now. And indeed, it was addictable!!I have been watching it overnight, after I came back from the New Year Countdown.

And while I am watching in the early morning of 1st Jan, I was slapped on the face by this phase that was used on me, by one of my exs. 'You are perfect on paper'. Me? perfect on paper. Sounds like a flattery, no? And I asked him what did he mean by that. He continued to say that I am intelligent, pretty, a great companion, and a perfect mother-to-be. And so I thought, it can't be anything bad.

Before I knew, I saw this phase used by Carrie in Sex and the City. It is used on this guy, who is cute, has a successful career.. etc, AND however, NOT the guy she will end up with. A perfect-on-paper guy is a guy that is perfect in every aspect, BUT you will still leave him for a jerk who breaks your heart. That was THE tight slap.

I absolutely do not believe it!!!GRRRR. I wonder if there is really something wrong with me.. Just because I left him, I suddenly became only good-in-paper?


Meanwhile, work has been very very stressful. and I have been having headaches almost everyday. Throughout. I somehow felt that my brain is expanding so much, that my skull is too small to contain it. and my brain kept pushing and forcing its way on my skull, that it hurts like crazy. :(

This is so, not a good time for me, I hope that work wun be so stressful and difficult tomorrow.

dimanche, janvier 02, 2005

The incredibles --Violet

Last minute shopping at Carrefour.

Carrefour was packed as usual, and as I was waiting for my friends, I took some pictures..